The Holy Spirit is not around to make us more comfortable. He is here to guide us toward our Holy Father and help us to keep our eyes on Him. The Holy Spirit does not lead us into places that WE desire to go but places that GOD desires us to go. Even if they two are not the same.
This is a hard truth that will bring so much peace to those that choose to follow. They choose to follow the Truth.
I choose to follow the Truth, the Holy Spirit.
After reading Forgotten God (well, the first two chapters anyway), I decided to make a list of reasons that I don't allow the Holy Spirit to guide me all the time or what simply scares me about Him. Here are some of the reasons I came up with: 1. I won't be able to hear Him to follow Him 2. I'm asking the wrong questions and looking for the wrong things 3. He won't show up for me like He does other people 4. I'll miss out on being with Him and 5. I won't be able to feel His presence. All valid reason that I'm sure I'm not alone on. But after further thinking about it, I decided I don't care what my fears are regarding the Holy Spirit, I choose to follow Him (fears and all).
There are many people that I graduated with that have been blessed with jobs and wonderful opportunities (awards, encouragement from staff and faculty, publications, etc.). And I have struggled with trust, contentment, jealousy, and all other negative emotions but I truly am happy for each and every one of them. I can read about their accomplishments and be genuinely positive about them. But still, I wonder where my big break is. I sit and think about when I will have what my heart desires. And then I realize I DO have what my heard desires. I desire to follow the Lord and trust in Him. I desire to follow where the Holy Spirit guides me, each and every day. And at this point in my life I am right where God has me. I have walked through the open doors that God opened for me being led by the Holy Spirit the whole time. Now I have to come with terms that what my future looks like in my eyes might never be what God has in store for me. And that's okay. Because I have tasted and seen that the Lord is good and I want all His goodness all the days of my life whether that's in my own classroom or in another country!
The Truth, His Truth, is what I choose.
1.11.2010
1.09.2010
Today is Saturday
Yep. I have come to love Saturdays. Even more than Sundays. Most Saturdays I get to sleep in (until 7am! Whoo!) and then we go grocery shopping. After that, the day is wide open! Sometimes we clean, sometimes we hang out with people, and then other days we are just lazy like we were today. After the grocery store, Wal-Mart, and Sam's, the hubs and I spent the day with the parents watching an SVU marathon. Great Saturday!
So last night I went on a hunt for a new book to read. Trying to find something to study is hard when you have no idea what exactly you're looking for. After slowly walking up and down the aisles a few times, I decided I wanted to study about being in God's presence at all times of the day and not just at church or when I'm doing something 'spiritual'. So of course I did what any other person would, I picked the book with the coolest cover. Haha. Forgotten God by Frances Chan. Also the author of Crazy Love, which I own but haven't read yet. I've heard great things about him and his books so I'm looking forward to starting it tomorrow. The book is about the Holy Spirit and how He is forgotten so much in churches. He is forgotten in our daily lives. Chan teaches about how to allow the Holy Spirit to lead us and have a personal relationship with us each day. Needless to say, I am excited about starting it. And the covers really neat, too. :)
So last night I went on a hunt for a new book to read. Trying to find something to study is hard when you have no idea what exactly you're looking for. After slowly walking up and down the aisles a few times, I decided I wanted to study about being in God's presence at all times of the day and not just at church or when I'm doing something 'spiritual'. So of course I did what any other person would, I picked the book with the coolest cover. Haha. Forgotten God by Frances Chan. Also the author of Crazy Love, which I own but haven't read yet. I've heard great things about him and his books so I'm looking forward to starting it tomorrow. The book is about the Holy Spirit and how He is forgotten so much in churches. He is forgotten in our daily lives. Chan teaches about how to allow the Holy Spirit to lead us and have a personal relationship with us each day. Needless to say, I am excited about starting it. And the covers really neat, too. :)
1.04.2010
Getting in the groove of things ...
Yep, today was the first day back to work. I wasn't sure if I would work today since it was the first day back from work but God blessed me with work. And a half day, at that. Such a nice way to get back in the groove of things. I subbed for a class that I've had four times already. It was so nice to know the students and how they behave. And they were so good, too! It really helps when students know their subs and they were excited to see me. Best part of the day!
Tomorrow I embark on Kindergarten (again). Last time I subbed for Kindergarten I had the class from Hades! They were holy terrors and that's putting it lightly. I'm trusting in God that tomorrow's class will NOT be anything like that one. I also found out that my name is in the "pot" for a 9 day subbing position. I know it's not too long-term but it's a start. I would have the same class for 9 days in a row and know for 9 days in a row exactly where I would be going! How marvelous!
So in class today, I started a unit in science about space and the teacher had me create a KWL chart with the students. One student raised his hand and informed me that he knew exactly how many stars were in space. You ready for this? There are ONE HUNDRED SIXTY-EIGHT stars in space. Yep, that's it. Haha. I asked him if we could write that space has many, many stars instead of writing an exact number and he respond, "by all means." :) I love it!
My permanent position is coming. I am believing that and claiming it! Thank you, Lord!
For now, I will continue to listen to Paramore: Decode. Goodnight!
Tomorrow I embark on Kindergarten (again). Last time I subbed for Kindergarten I had the class from Hades! They were holy terrors and that's putting it lightly. I'm trusting in God that tomorrow's class will NOT be anything like that one. I also found out that my name is in the "pot" for a 9 day subbing position. I know it's not too long-term but it's a start. I would have the same class for 9 days in a row and know for 9 days in a row exactly where I would be going! How marvelous!
So in class today, I started a unit in science about space and the teacher had me create a KWL chart with the students. One student raised his hand and informed me that he knew exactly how many stars were in space. You ready for this? There are ONE HUNDRED SIXTY-EIGHT stars in space. Yep, that's it. Haha. I asked him if we could write that space has many, many stars instead of writing an exact number and he respond, "by all means." :) I love it!
My permanent position is coming. I am believing that and claiming it! Thank you, Lord!
For now, I will continue to listen to Paramore: Decode. Goodnight!
1.03.2010
Finally!
I have been trying to remember the username and password to my blog for like a week! And I finally figured it out. It's under my email from like 3 years ago ... *sigh* My current email address is my old blog's username and I don't know how to delete it. Welcome to my technology illiterate brain.
Anyway ... Christmas break ends tomorrow. Back to school. Back to waiting around and wondering if I'll be working. I'm not going to lie, I enjoy not working. I like having time to do things I like to do ... reading, quilting, knitting, thrift shopping, watching movies, doing laundry (yes, I like laundry), decorating my home. I never thought I'd say this but I could see myself being a stay-at-home wife. But maybe that's because I don't have a job that I enjoy. Maybe if I had my own classroom and students I'd enjoy working a little more.
Our church is doing a corporate 21 day fast starting tomorrow and the hubby and I are joining in. I have never done a fast before so I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I'm excited about bringing my body back to a healthy stage. I'm looking forward to seeing how God will change my life and my walk with Him as well as my marriage and my relationships with others. One thing that the hubs and I are believing for are doors to open to our careers. Right now we both just have jobs ... not careers. We want more! We are also believing for financial prosperity and direction in our finances. Now I know that when you're fasting the Bible clearly says to do so that no one knows but I don't really think this is boasting or trying to gain sympathy. I am just simply sharing what is happening in my life. Right?
By the way, I am listening to Bella's Lullaby from the movie Twilight. I love it!! Yes, I will admit that I like the Twilight series. SO SHOVE IT! I'm just kidding ... But no, really. I like the song and it kinda makes me want to cry for some reason. Perhaps I'm PMSing. :)
I know this post has been a little spastic so I'm just going to switch gears, yet again. This morning the hubby preached at church. He talked about testifying and what you need to do in order to testify about God. I was so proud of him for using an acronym. I just love acronyms. :) So here it goes:
T - Trusting in God
E - Establishing a relationship and basic principles of a Christian walk (prayer time, reading the Bible, etc.)
S - Study His Word
T - Tell others
I - Involve yourself in church in order to encourage each other
F - Forget the past and look forever forward
Y - You (Everything God has done, He has done for you because He loves you)
Alright. I think I will make some hot tea and go read for a bit. Currently reading Confessions of a Jane Austen Addict. Now that I've remembered my username, I'll try to update more often!
Anyway ... Christmas break ends tomorrow. Back to school. Back to waiting around and wondering if I'll be working. I'm not going to lie, I enjoy not working. I like having time to do things I like to do ... reading, quilting, knitting, thrift shopping, watching movies, doing laundry (yes, I like laundry), decorating my home. I never thought I'd say this but I could see myself being a stay-at-home wife. But maybe that's because I don't have a job that I enjoy. Maybe if I had my own classroom and students I'd enjoy working a little more.
Our church is doing a corporate 21 day fast starting tomorrow and the hubby and I are joining in. I have never done a fast before so I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I'm excited about bringing my body back to a healthy stage. I'm looking forward to seeing how God will change my life and my walk with Him as well as my marriage and my relationships with others. One thing that the hubs and I are believing for are doors to open to our careers. Right now we both just have jobs ... not careers. We want more! We are also believing for financial prosperity and direction in our finances. Now I know that when you're fasting the Bible clearly says to do so that no one knows but I don't really think this is boasting or trying to gain sympathy. I am just simply sharing what is happening in my life. Right?
By the way, I am listening to Bella's Lullaby from the movie Twilight. I love it!! Yes, I will admit that I like the Twilight series. SO SHOVE IT! I'm just kidding ... But no, really. I like the song and it kinda makes me want to cry for some reason. Perhaps I'm PMSing. :)
I know this post has been a little spastic so I'm just going to switch gears, yet again. This morning the hubby preached at church. He talked about testifying and what you need to do in order to testify about God. I was so proud of him for using an acronym. I just love acronyms. :) So here it goes:
T - Trusting in God
E - Establishing a relationship and basic principles of a Christian walk (prayer time, reading the Bible, etc.)
S - Study His Word
T - Tell others
I - Involve yourself in church in order to encourage each other
F - Forget the past and look forever forward
Y - You (Everything God has done, He has done for you because He loves you)
Alright. I think I will make some hot tea and go read for a bit. Currently reading Confessions of a Jane Austen Addict. Now that I've remembered my username, I'll try to update more often!
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